Stuck !

At this moment , i really don't know what to do, what to think. Every thing seem to very difficult to me, how can i possible to get rid of it. Face it ... like a brave man ... i hope , i have some one to share my feeling , my thinking, any little bit of care. It's seem so dark here. I couldn't find a way to get out ... all dark, every where darken when i walk in... Hopeless, disappointed , tired , exhausted ...
What is true, what is wrong, it's not important anymore, when every thing corrupted ... collapsed , so hard to fix it , so hard , its out of my hand ... out of my control ,, out of my thinking , overpower with me ... i said i can't do it , i thought i can't do it ... and at this moment ... exactly, i couldn't do it ... couldn't make it done ...
incompetence : yeah : its fit me ... i can't do anything success ... what wrong with me , what i do wrong ... is it " i don't care " is it , right ? if it's the cause .. please let me know, i will fix it ,  i'll no never no ever again say that ... i will care , it's my responsibility ... it's my fault ... do i have to tell the truth ... do i must to do it. i'll talk to my mom ! She'll understand me ! I hope that ... i never believe she'll show the sympathy for me ... She's my mom ... she'll forgive me ! Is it alright ... i can't face to her ! She's the most painted one ! But i have to, to solve the problem ... i will do anything ... i will do anything ... i will tell her the truth ... i'll give her the answer ... all the liar , all the fucking liar , all the thing  i'm hiding. all the thing behind the truth ... Yeah, its just the liar , the hiding ... is it late to fix anything , please tell me , i can't handle it anymore ... i can't ... Please . Tell me what to do. I'm coward ,,, am i jerk , never mind ... its all crashes ... i have to stay up ... cheer me up . Can't stay at here anymore... please, forgive me ! I'll never do it anymore !
Never Never again, hiding anything .. I have to solve it ... ! Thank to support me !